I've wanted to touch upon this subject for some time; however, I tend to put it off. It's not the most exciting subject, but at the same time having somewhere, I can express my inner thoughts did offer me some focus in the past.

Towards the end of 2019, I tend to find my mind the most proactive of the year.

While some openly mock people for wanting to improve their lives, whether it be for real or just for the sake of a quick social status - depression can be worse for those who suffer from it doing December. It's for that reason; I think it's harsh for people to mock others - as it seems natural that people will want to improve their lives or learn from the year that has passed.

I'm thankful this December; my mum has been at home where she belongs.

The past two years has been difficult for the simple reason she's been quite ill in hospital, I've enjoyed spending time with my parents and this past Christmas for me it was all about sharing quality time with them.

Only issue I've had this time around was due to falling ill, but I am used to this.

While I felt ill - I spent a lot of time thinking. I usually do, which is why I tend to be productive but again it wasn't negative as I typically find.

I've focused on perspective, being content and figuring out what I did during the summer months - which I could benefit from trying to do in the winter ones.

Another is having more focus on what I do, I've invested a lot of time doing art - mostly due to being told it would only become more difficult with arthritis and how easily I can dislocate my joints.

I spent a few hours on Christmas and Boxing Day messing around, well, just trying to familiarise myself with a new graphic tablet which my parents brought me.

I have various applications installed on my laptop/PC that would support the device, such as Photoshop and Illistrator.

However, I spent some time with the equipment, and I wanted to see if I could find something more geared towards digital art instead.

I love it; it's much easier to hold the pen. I find drawing for longer spells more comfortable, and I can even see my daughters loving uses graphic tablet.

I'm hoping to find some free time to doodle more, maybe work on some new things.

So, with the focus of saving time and making things easier for my condition - I do want to find time to do the things I know I take for granted.