ARLukomski

His stats from his loan spell at Shrewsbury PLD 12 Accurate passes - 185/258 (71.7%) Chances created - 6 Passes into final third - 52 Accurate long balls - 21 Dispossessed - 1 Tackles won - 6 Recoveries - 29 Ground duels won - 25/49 (51%) Aerial duels won - 5/11 (45.5%)

Our squad currently GK - Bass, Slocombe RWB - Nemane, Gordon CB - Platt, Bedeau, Macari, McDonald, Cundy LWB - Jones, Tsaroulla, Chicksen CM - Palmer, Robertson, Hinchy, Edwards CAM - Crowley, Austin ST - Jatta, Scott, McGoldrick Plus Stone, Reynolds, Sanderson, Gill, Cisse Then the squad and where everyone can cover

I've been trying to get round to writing this and then put it up for a while, but me being me, has never got round to doing it. I struggle with speeches like this and trying to find the right words at the right moments. That's why I tend to freeze in important moments. For a while now (and I mean a few years) I've been wondering whether or not to carry on with my YouTube channel and my matchday videos. I started them because YouTube looked fun and whilst I enjoyed it for a certain amount of time, it got to a point where my motivation dipped dramatically and others (I tend to compare myself to others a lot even though I know it won't help) were and still are producing much better content. Summed up by the fact I didn't even bother to edit or upload the last two games of last season. I beat myself up over the smallest of mistakes and things can get to me quite easily. Whilst I should do it for the enjoyment and, I do get a modicum of enjoyment from time to time out of it, the low views, the Grimsby and Newport problems last season, the comment section after Donny and my mental health in general, coupled with my lack of motivation, really made me wonder/makes me wonder if I should bother carrying on. I still get people tell me they watch my videos and they enjoy them and I sometimes still get noticed out and about or at games, and I even had someone ask for a selfie with me at The Nest a while back, but I can never convince myself that my content is actually good. I want to be good at something, I want to be skilled, I want to be talented. That would go someway for me to be able to live with myself and find inner peace. However it feels a long way off. I've always had that feeling of having no sense of achievement. So no matter what I accomplish, I will always dismiss it because, either others will judge it, I think other people will have done something better or that any other normal person could have accomplished what I've done. I've always thought, if I quit, what would others think? A lot of people don't know me well enough to know why I am like I am. I haven't reached the stage of being comfortable enough to open up about my mental health. Would people still recognise me and see me for who I am, or would I just be a nobody? Would I still be relevant? Would people still see me as that YouTube guy? So I'm undecided. I've had this feeling inside of me and I've constantly questioned myself as to what the right choice is. I feel like I want to or need to pack it in but then it wouldn't feel right not doing what I have been doing for 8½ years and what I'm sort of known for doing. It takes a lot to give up something like this as it's been a big part of my life for almost a decade and part of me still wants to fight on. Something inside of me tells me there is something worth fighting for. This is where you come in. It is no longer in my hands. It is in the hands of the people. I need reasons to carry on. Why you think it's worth it, what's good and not good and what can be improved? I need YOU to tell me it is worth carrying on and to convince me. The feedback matters and I want you tell me honestly and to give me the reasons to carry on. No matter what the decision though, please don't forget about me

Post match thoughts ⬇️ The trialists were Alex Kirk, Elliot Thorpe and Eno Nto

It's obviously frustrating to lose another derby, especially as there was a chance to get something from the game. However, there are definitely positives to take. We battled and competed but ran out of ideas and legs in the end. Should've taken one of the chances we had in the first half. Robertson looked good and battled well, making it tough for Maris and Reed to build attacks from deep, winning the ball in good areas. Maynard explained in his post match why Jones and Nemane were on opposite wings and I understood. It was a good way of breaking their press. I thought Warner slotted in well and looked more comfortable than Brindley. Baldwin had a good game, helping us play out from the back, heading away plenty of crosses and making his fair share of last ditch blocks and tackles. However, we still lack strength in depth. It's the biggest difference between League 2 and the National League. Hence, again, why Austin was the only viable substitute. Nemane was knackered from about 65 mins onwards, as was Bostock. We're not ready to go up and we need to realise it. We can still make a fight of it this season, but if we don't go up it's not the end of the world.

One thing we must stop doing in this fixture, is capitulating. It is a horrible trait of Notts teams over the years in this very fixture. 2015-16 - Lost 5-0 and conceded 3 in 10 minutes, that took the score from 1-0 to 4-0. 2016-17 - Lost 3-1 and conceded 2 goals in added time (the first in the 90th and the second in the 93rd) that took the score from 1-1 to 3-1. 2017-18 - Lost 3-1 and conceded 3 goals in 16 minutes, including 2 in 4 minutes. That took the score from 0-0 to 3-0. 2023-24 - Lost 4-1 and conceded 3 in 11 minutes that took the score from 1-1 to 4-1.

Seen this fixture nine times. 1 JPT, 8 league games. 2 wins, 2 draws, 5 losses. GF7, GA18. Our record in this derby is bad, but our record at Field Mill is borderline farcical. The main reason why we never do well in this fixture is because we don't have the right attitude and application, especially in the away fixture. Funnily enough, the one time we did show some bite and finishing quality, we won. Warner must start over Brindley because like Bradford and for a while Barrow, Mansfield will just target our right-hand side. We need legs to cope with their midfield diamond and to also stand strong if they go man-to-man (like they did at ML). Unlike that fixture though, Jodi will be available for it. It's also in games like this, we must stop isolating Macca. It feels like sometimes we're too afraid to take risks incase the opposition counter on us. It's happened against all the teams we've played in the top 7 this season. I've already seen that Mansfield are in an apparent "crisis," like they say they are everytime before they play us, before we eventually put in an excuse of a performance and tamely lose like normal. This time its to do with their lack of striker options. I've already predicted they'll get a penalty to make up for the one they didn't get against Wimbledon. It's also not like their Twitter account has already tweeted about the game 2 or 3 times this week already, whilst we've tweeted nothing about it. This game won't define our season but the players owe us after the reverse fixture. I hope SM, MS and CS have done their research into our record in this fixture. It needs to change. Immediately

Thought it was a case of stuck trying to find a happy balance between playing Williamsball and Maynardball. There was a focus on being steadier at the back, but that meant we were less brave going forward. It took a bit of time to get going. We conceded quite a few chances in the first half but were better at preventing them in the second half. I thought Baldwin was excellent and made some superb blocks and tackles. Also controlled the build up play from the back. It will be more open against different opposition as, as shown in the reverse fixture, Barrow are well drilled and are good defensively. It was one of our more quiet games under Williams as well. With time, we'll find that fine balance between defensive protection and attacking fluidity. I don't think we're ready to go up. I thought that last month. We need bigger squad depth and more options off the bench, hence why Austin was the only sub. The biggest difference between L2 and NL is squad depth.